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I ache from my bones to my brain and back

You know that full body ache that makes you writhe around because just laying still makes it feel more concentrated? I’m laying here fidgeting. I can feel every muscle, bone, joint, tendon in my body right now and they ache intensely. Its spread to my whole body when earlier it was just my back. I don’t get this type of pain that often, more electrocution like feelings all over my body. I had a busy weekend, so I figured the fatigue would be pretty bad today, which it was, but Its strange because for once I had very little vision graying. Almost none. That is the almost daily indicator MS sends me to “shut it down” . Not today I guess.. today this body ache is everywhere and in the last few hours its gotten really bad (and I have been told by many that my pain tolerance is pretty darn high). Its half small contractions in the muscles and half just a solid ache everywhere. My fingers hurt. My legs hurt. My back is throbbing. Way worse than the last few times this has happened. All I have to take for it is Advil. heh. That is not really helpful though I did take it. Blah. I guess there isn’t any purpose to this post but to vent. I tried to spend the day resting so I could recover from the weekend (sounds like I was wild and crazy but really I was just cat sitting heh). Instead of preventing further craptasticness I’ve gotten worse. I can’t afford to have another day with absolutely no productivity at all. I have more SSI forms, insurance companies to call, etc etc.. but if this keeps getting worse I’m never going to sleep and I’ll just continue to fall behind, get stressed about it, push myself too hard, and end up right back where I am at the moment. Failboat. Thanks MS, for never letting me forget. hah. 

4 October 2011 ·

• Tags
• Pain
• Ache
• Stress
• frustrated
• Fatigue
• Shocks
• spastic muscles
• exhausted
• Multiple Sclerosis
• Chronic Illness
• Chronic Pain
• blerg
• failboat