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MS hug, my ass!!

What stupid fuck decided to call it an MS hug?

Yes, I am about to bitch, so feel free to stop reading… unless you have MS and then many of you can relate.

So this MS hug for me is not a nice gentle hug. In fact, it is almost like an electrical shock. It is right along my rib cage, under my breast. I say breast because it is mostly on the left side. My MS favors my left side. It does affect my right, but not to the degree it does my left.

I honestly am surprised my neighbors did not call the police. It hit and it hit hard. I was screaming to the top of my lungs. I could not control it. I scared poor Hannah to death.

It only lasted 40 seconds, but it was a looooooong 40 seconds. When it hit I could not breath, I thought my lungs was going to collapse, I did manage to get one breath in during that 40 second time frame and it hurt like hell.

If you are reading this and never experienced it, then I cannot truly explain it to you. The best I could describe it is that it is like someone is using a taser on you.

If anyone deals with this and has any suggestions as to what to do about it, please enlighten me. I am open to any and all suggestions.

I know this is supposedly from muscle spasms, but man it does not feel like that.

I am now exhausted. Still sore but not in the excruciating pain way. It has settled into a really tight, uncomfortable bear hug.

Once I was finally able to breath and the pain subsided to the point I was not screaming, I called Hannah into the room, hugged her, and told her I was ok, mommy was just hurting.

She put her little hand up to my face and said, “Mommy, you should call the doctor, he will help you.”

Oh, honey, if only my doctor could help me. But I did not tell her that, I simply reassured her that I was going to be ok and that I loved her. And then I hugged her tight.

Yes, this MS hug is for the birds, but the hug from Hannah makes it so much more bearable.

ugh! thanks for this! MS hug is more like MS MAC TRUCK. Sorry people but I won’t call excruciating pain something nice because it makes you feel better if I talk about it.

23 April 2012 ·