Chronically Something

Its been a while…

but I had a seizure tonight. Not sure if Its over doing it with the cleaning, or just a build up of several months of stress and what not.  I wasn’t even sure it happened. I’ve had both partial seizures and full on Tonic-clonic seizures throughout my time with illness.. but it was clearly a partial seizure. I didn’t even realize it happened. I sorta lost time.. felt really out of it before, after, then felt ok for a bit before feeling shitty again. Didn’t do anything weird thank god. Last time I had a partial seizure was a year ago and I lit a cigarette in Kmart and put it out on my hand. heh. 

So i’m not sure what this means or anything. Its over and from my previous seizure experience I know there isn’t much than another MRI they can do when this happens so I hesitated to contact anyone. My friend @wholegrainlofat, who witnessed the major Kmart incident, came by later (after being here helping me clean and noticing I started being weird) and could tell by my pupils that something had happened. ugh. Still, I’m feeling a bit better now but decided to be responsible and called the on call doc at my Neuros office. 

Its weird since I have been dealing with so many other MS symptoms and what not but the seizure stuff has been outta the picture. Sorta wonder if this is the build up of all the stuff I’ve been “over doing” for the last 4 months.. or the fact that I was spraying polyurethane on a cool stick I found that I wanna paint today but its windy so I probably inhaled some of it. hah. anyway. So that happened. sorta brings me back to the “what demon am I fighting” post but also has made me think I’m over stressing myself WAY too much and that might be why this is reaching a critical mass. 

either way I don’t know what the hell to do but.. I think maybe I will find a way to use this for some sort of perspective tomorrow after talking to the on call doc (that I’m waiting for the call back from despite my desperate desire to sleep) and having a good nights sleep. We’ll see though. I think maybe I can take my promise to be more positive and use this as a kick in the ass that I need to make that happen? maybe? sorta? I dunno. I’m trying tho! 

28 January 2012 ·

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• multiple sclerosis
• chronic illness
• seizure
• doctors
• neurologist
• positive thinking
• pupils