Can’t say it better. Had a day like this today too. Would have been angry at myself if i had the energy. Made it out to my appointment by sheer force and apparent willingness to risk mine and others lives driving there because I’d cancelled last week and the week before so I had to go today. I survived getting there and upon arrival my counselor looked at me and said “Wow. you really look like shit.” Thanks. I’m glad I have a therapist to remind me of these things… you know… since my MS screws up my short term memory too. heh.
Today was one of those days. I am so tired. Cannot stay awake, cannot function.
My legs feel so weak, my arms heavy as lead, and the exhaustion explainable.
This is not a lazy day, or being tired, this is a life draining, I-cannot-function-in- anyway, kind of fatigue.
Today, as I lay here crying, wondering why I am so lazy, so useless, so unable to do things I want… It dawns on me. I have MS.
Yes, most of you already know that, I know that. Yet I tend to try and deny it. But sometimes my body simply will not let me deny.
My new bedroom furniture came today. All set up in my new bedroom and I could not even muster the energy to drive the 2 minutes to the house to look at it. I did not have the energy to even get on the computer much. Even typing this is exhausting.
I hate days like these.